Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Friday, October 19, 2007
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
So, anyway...what else has been going on? Well, just this last weekend my friend Laurie came over to teach me a little bit about painting because I want to paint a rocking chair for Vessel to give to him on his birthday. Laurie is one of the sweetest, coolest people I know, and she is also very talented when it comes to crafty things. She knows a lot about painting especially, and has refurbished several pieces of furniture of her own. She gave me the "how to" and let me borrow her sander, so that was nice. Before she came over I had some bread in the oven so we got to chat and eat homemade bread and jam. There is seriously nothing better than homemade bread. It's just a shame that it gets eaten so quickly. I swear, every time I make bread, the loaf is gone in a day or two. And it's not like you crave a slice of store bought bread with jam, am I right? If we buy a loaf of bread from the store, it lasts us more than a week. Anyway, I made 2 loaves, one whole wheat and one white. And even though I botched up the recipes for both, they somehow still turned out pretty good.
Saturday night we went with our friends to a corn maze at Thanksgiving Point. Talk about fun times. There were all kinds of events taking place. There was a gigantic trampoline bubble toy that we all jumped on. Between me jumping and laughing so hard, I seriously peed myself. Ah, the joys of incontinence. You think its sick, but why don't you see how different your body is after you give birth, mmmkay? We all had a good laugh about that. :) We went on a hayride and saw several sweet jack-o-lanterns, we got to shoot pumpkins and corncobs out of cannons in an attempt to hit cows (fake of course,) we raced each other on these crazy adult tricycles, went down several slides, and got to ride around in "barrel cows" being pulled by a tractor. And of course we went through the corn maze. It was shaped like a pirate ship, so our friend was pretty stoked about that and came equipped with a sword and a hook for a hand. I filched four corn cobs to take home to use as harvest decor in our apartment. Everyone kept giving me a hard time about the "corn cops" coming to bust me or about me getting "cornvicted." Funny people I hang out with, eh? It's a shame to see all that corn go to waste. I was just doing my part to help out. We had a fun night. It is always a treat to be able to get together with friends like that.
Sunday was good ol' F&T meeting at church. We saw Mike's family and then went over to see our friends Sheldon and Michelle's new house. We got to hang out just like old times. Unfortunately Shippy became restless so we had to cut things short and get him to bed.
So, yeah, busy busy bees we are. After a blissful Fall break, Mike is back in school and busier than ever. I've gotten quite a few calls to go crossing for people, so I'm actually getting some hours. I've been pretty busy getting stuff ready for Halloween and Vessel's birthday. I spent yesterday and today making lots and lots of decorations. It's amazing what you can create with a pad of construction paper and a box of Kleenex.
Oh, get this...I watched the Price is Right yesterday with Drew Carrey....and it was so sad. I mean, Drew's a nice guy (kind of a tubby nerd, but nice) yet he's not Bob Barker. Bob is a legend. I'm so glad Mike and I were able to go to TPIR during spring break to see him and get autographed pictures. Would've loved to get called to "come on down," but whaddayagonnado?
I'm so tired. I better go wash this stuff out of my hair so I can finally go to sleep.
Friday, October 12, 2007
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Flat Earth Fruit and Vegetable Crisps http://www.flatearth.com/
These are 2 of my new favorite snacks lately. While I was at the grocery store they were having a sale on these Flat Earth fruit snacks so I picked some up. Those sales, they always suck me in. I really like to munch on crunchy, fruity food so these snacks hit the spot for me. They come in a variety of flavors including Apple Cinnamon Grove, Garlic and Herb Field, Peach Mango Paradise, and Tangy Tomato Ranch. I have only tried the Wild Berry Patch so far though. They have actual fruit in them, and the package says they contain no artificial flavors or preservatives, so that's a good thing. Granted, eating a piece of fruit would be better for you, but I thought these were a good alternative to something like potato chips.
The next snack comes from the Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory. I really love this season because you can find caramel and candied apples. But RMCF takes it a bit further. They have concocted a variety of dipped apples to satisfy your sweet tooth. A few days ago our friends dropped by and got us a couple of these delicious apples. One was dipped in caramel, then white chocolate, then covered in oreo crumbles. The other was dipped in caramel, white chocolate, and brown sugar & cinnamon. They were both SO good. Unfortunately they're a little over $4 for each one, so if you really want to splurge I say go for it. I don't know if I can justify paying that much for an apple, but they are seriously tasty.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Monday, October 8, 2007
Have you ever had one of those days? Or one of those weeks? I’m having one of those weeks. It’s just not going well for me lately. For the past little while I’ve been having lots of vivid dreams about my mom. I miss her terribly. I would give anything to just be able to call her up and talk to her. As much as I try to push her death out of my mind, there’s always something that reminds me. I just want to talk to her about motherhood and ask her questions and tell her all about Vessel and life in general. I want to be able to ask her advice and share things with her mother to mother. For some reason it’s all just catching up to me now. It’s been over a year since her passing and I am just now seriously feeling the effects. Seems like a delayed reaction. Is this normal? I feel angry sometimes, like the timing was so wrong. She left too soon. It seems unfair. It’s not fair that her 24 year old daughter had to make the arrangements for her funeral and it’s not fair that her 20 year old daughter, totally inexperienced with the so-called “real world,” had to watch her mom and best friend die in her arms after trying to resuscitate her. These things shouldn’t happen, yet they do. God works in mysterious ways. But I have yet to uncover the mystery of my mom’s death. Why her? Why then? Why in that way? It was so unexpected. Maybe if she had some terminal illness it would’ve been easier. I’d have a chance to say the things I wanted say and tell her good-bye. I’d have an idea of her wants and wishes. But no, it was so abrupt. And the regrets are unbearable sometimes. I kick myself for all my “should haves.” I just really miss her and nobody seems to understand how hard it still is.
General conference was this past weekend and I was really excited to be able to listen to the talks. I felt like I needed some spiritual uplifting and comforting words. But unfortunately, I didn’t get to listen to most of conference for various reasons, so I am sad about that. And it seems that this past week has been a struggle spiritually for me and I can feel the void in my heart from slacking off on stuff I should be doing better at.
Today I had a rock in my gut that never went away. I feel like people are judging me when they don’t even know me. They don’t know what kind of person I really am. They just make assumptions. I have some indication that certain people look down on me and my decisions by the subtle things they say and do. Unfortunately they fail to understand or recognize my circumstances and reasoning.
Today even strangers have been so mean to me. After my crossing guard shift I had to go turn off the school zone lights. To do that I have to make a left hand turn to get to the switchboard. Well, while I was waiting for a break in traffic to make my turn, the people behind me were none too pleased to have to wait behind me so they laid on their obnoxious horn and yelled obscenities out their window at me, making sure to call me an F-ing b*tch and other choice names. Not only that, but in the same day I got honked at by another lady because I tried being nice by letting someone else go in front of me. To top it off, while I was at a stop light later this afternoon, from the corner of my eye I noticed a lot of movement taking place in the car next to me. So I looked over to find two men waving at me. I didn’t recognize them so I didn’t wave back and just turned away. I looked over at them again and they were still waving and making obscene gestures with their mouths and hands and generally being gross and offensive while continuing to get me to wave at them. I shook my head “no” so they flipped me off several times while mouthing the words F-U. Then when the light turned green they steadily stayed right next to my car and wouldn’t let me pass them. It was scary since I was the only one in the car (Vessel and Mike weren’t with me at the time.) What is the world coming to? There are so many crude and mean people these days. That last incident in the car was what really threw me over the edge and I just broke down and cried. I needed a good cry though, since there had been so many things eating at me all week. But tomorrow’s a new day and I suppose there’s no other way to go but up.