We have an official move date. The weekend of March 24th! I, for one, have been waiting for what seems like an eternity to move. When things got pushed back from the time we were supposed to leave Great Falls the first time (last September) I was pretty depressed. I think it's mainly because I had things arranged in my mind how I thought they would be and when things didn't work out like expected I panicked a bit. I don't like it when plans get changed and I have to rearrange my life and all my ideas to fit a different agenda. You know what? I don't even know if I'm going to like Portland. I've never even been there. But at this point I am just so ready for a fresh start. A new environment, a new house, new opportunities, etc. I hope we love it there and that things just fall neatly into place. Change is scary. But Mike and I believe this will be a good move for our family. Only 2 months away!
So my last entry I wrote about some struggles I had been having trying to adjust to post pregnancy life and the presence of a baby in the home. Things have gradually gotten better. As I mentioned in my last post, I'm trying to feel more gratitude in my life and that seems to help a bunch. Also, never underestimate the power of prayer. I feel that sometimes during difficult days, prayer is the only thing that gets me through. It's also nice that Haven is older now. I know, he's only a mere 2 months now, but it seems like he's changed so much since his birth. He is hefty and growing out of his clothes like crazy. He has started to lose that newborn look and he is awake and alert more often during the day. He is smiling, cooing, and even laughing now. I'm amazed at how much these little things lift my spirits. He is sleeping very well at night and I am getting a bit more sleep which helps my mood. We have gotten into a routine and that has eliminated a good portion of my anxiety. Haven is very predictable and I know when he's going to be hungry and sleepy and I know why he's upset when he fusses and I can usually find the solution to calming him down. I have him all figured out and that definitely makes me feel more confident as a mother.