Don't Let It Go Away

I'm on a weird but happy high. I am becoming more content with who I am. I am becoming more self-aware. But strangely, despite this self-awareness, I am becoming more aware of others. My life is climbing the long stairway up, and I am falling less and less. I worry about saying it out loud. I worry about writing it. It seems to fade faster when I do. I seem to jinx it when I verbalize my happiness. Sometimes I think life is so overwhelming, and other times I feel like it's just not enough. But right now it feels just right. And I don't want to lose this feeling.