Monday, August 31, 2009

Please, just let it go, okay?

To: __________________

I was just informed by a friend of your most recent display of hostility towards me. You say you want me out of your life and yet all you do is talk about me behind my back. One would think that if you no longer wanted me in your life then you would just let go and stop thinking of me all together. But how can you stop thinking of me when you continue to speak evil of me? If you insist on hating me because you just can't let go and forgive then that is no longer on my shoulders. I know I was mean to you at one point in our past, but I have attempted several times to make amends. There is only so much that I can do. I think you've forgotten that you aren't the only one who got hurt. And yet, even now I sincerely have no ill feelings towards you and wish you would just feel the same about me. I am not the person I was back then. I have changed. I have different views now and I have opened my mind to new ideas. I have grown and matured. I've been working on being a more peaceful and loving person. But you won't allow me to change. You just want to focus on some injustice you've built up in your head. I forgave you long ago of your offenses against me. And I've made a lot of progress when it comes to my feelings towards you. I pushed you out of my mind and tried to get on with my life. But when things are brought to my attention, such as your incessant judgment and cruel, inaccurate descriptions of me to your other condescending friends, then it gets hard. I don't want to have angry feelings towards you or anyone else for that matter. I guess some people might wonder why I let you get to me? Why would I let the opinion of someone I don't even care about affect me so much? Good question. I suppose it's because I'm human. Because it does hurt when you say bad things about me, no matter how insignificant you are to me. Its not fair that you persist spending your time bitterly speaking unkind words about me and victimizing yourself. Other people shouldn't have to base their impression of me on hearing your exaggerated, one-sided story. I have been willing to drop it and move on for quite some time now. And if you could just do the same it would make it a lot easier for me.

3 comments:

Sheltielady said...

o my gosh - I know how you feel

kenna said...

People like this just make my head hurt.

I'm sorry you have to deal with it.

Melissa Tupou said...

those people have sad lives if they can't get over it!